Flash Back Friday - Date # 8

Date number 8 we got to spend the entire weekend alone together. This was back in the day when we use to have this little thing called..."no kid weekends." Instead of recounting the entire wonderful weekend here is an email that my Mister Paul P sent me after our date # 7. This is what he wrote....

MY Kary,

Yes, I DO know exactly how you are feeling right now...even as "a guy" you may have a hard time believing that I am going through the entire gamut of emotions you are right now...I thank God we are doing this together! It would really stink to feel this good about someone, and for them not to realize it, or feel something similar. THAT is what is making you and I so good for each other, and together. We have the same desires, and the same needs, and we are pretty close on how we need to obtain them for ourselves.

I know we are still in the infancy of this relationship, but I KNOW in my heart that this is only the tip of the iceberg...and those butterflies will continue, and be more intense. I honestly don't think I could ever tire being with you, near you, close to you. Yesterday was so natural for me....I KNOW what kind of mom you are, and I respect that tremendously. I was at home last night...even while we were on the porch having adult time with Gavin sleeping...those are the things that make MEMORIES.....I was so into you, that I didn't have time to be bored.

I really like you too. I really believer we are on the verge of something bigger than you or I have ever experienced....time is on our side...slow, sure, and completely confident in what we are doing...that is my goal...and IF we do continue ...life will be elevated to a dimension that neither you nor I have ever experienced...I thought I would be scared of that...instead, I am really excited by that.

Again, Ms P, I really like you, and love having you in my life....

YOUR Paul

Hello...

How was your day...?

Dental Work

New fillings and another sliver tooth $385.

Make up for the discomfort $3.29 happy meal from BK plus an additional play time on the indoor slid for Macey and $8.99 six pack of beer for daddy.

= one beautiful smile that is priceless!

Studebaker's Next Pin-up Girl

No new photos today...we were busy running to the store for last minute packed lunches and Miss Macey is going to have more dental work tomorrow...so we needed something for her to eat when she awakes from her drug induced slumber. Macey will be fine...so pray for daddy as he is REALLY dreading the entire ordeal. I can't blame him :(

Writing America's Next Greatest Novel...

as told by Gavin Brown

with little sister in toe...

Top secret....

Why can't I read...?

Date #7

A group date...me, Paul and Gavin. It went better than what I thought possible. After dinner we went to the park to feed the ducks. Gavin was on one side of me, Paul was on the other. We were standing on the park bench (because you have to if you don't want to get mauled) throwing bread at about 80 ducks. It felt so right. It felt like it had always been. My two favorite men, on either side of me. It was a content moment, a loud moment...with all the quacking and giggles, but still content.
Paul was so quiet, he didn't hoard my time, or have to be center of attention. He told me he was just trying to blend in. I think he did an excellent job at that too!

We all played on the play ground, go doing the slides, chasing after Gavin. Paul did a yard sale down the slid. Change, keys and all the other contents of his pockets came down the slid first...then him. I had never seen a 37 year old come down a twisty slide head first before. Paul pulled it off good.

Gavin wanted to know if Paul liked Superman, and who his favorite superhero was. He wanted to know if Paul was going to stay and play, and he even showed off his newly learned boogie dance.

Gavin never acted out to get my attention the entire time Paul was around. At the end of the night Gavin told Paul that he could go home now...so Paul left, I put Gavin to bed, and Paul meet me on the porch for adult time.

I am so in like with this man. We kissed forever, one for each day of the week. We talked about our first kisses, and our worst kisses. Paul's description of the worst was something about a hamster in a wheel. Uck...that was different, and I am glad it wasn't me!

It was difficult to say good-night. I didn't want him to go.

(Photo is of this fall when we took Macey to our special place to feed the ducks for her first time.)

Pouting..

Again, let me show all your girls how it is done!



I love this photo, and the wrinkle in her brow. She totally has this look down. I don't even know what she was pouting about when I took it. Which makes me happy that this pretty pout really has Nothing to pout about in life at all! Our life is so good here at the Payne house. Paul and I tell each other weekly that "life is good," and we both REALLY mean it! Bills may be tight, life may be hard, the daily grind can sometimes get to us, but no one means it more than us...Life really is good, and we are sucking all of it up for as long as it lasts!

Just playing....

Crab Apple Tree

This pic is for our Mamoo....She takes these yucky apples and turns them into wonderful apple sauce! Its the best.

Mamoo, looks like we are in for lots of apples this year. We can't wait.

Belated Flash Back Friday - Date # 6

"You'll wonder where your body lands." That is what we sang on the way to see John Mayer and the Counting Crows concert. I was smiling again..as soon as Paul showed. He makes me beam. Grinning from ear to ear. I love that we can't seem to get our hands off each other, touching, hugging, kissing. I don't think I could ever get enough. One or both of us were hanging onto the other's body. Paul is just my height. I love that! I use to wish for a man that was more my size, and not so overwhelming when he stood next to me. It is great being eye level with someone, and not having to look up all night long.
Show was good, I liked the Counting Crows better. Lots of people, so many people in fact that we spent a few minutes shy of two hours leaving the parking lot at Verizon.
Our first argument. We had an unsetting discussion on the way home (must have been sparked by the two hour wait). I think and worry way to much. The thing is that finding Paul was so unexpected. Liking Paul is even more unexpected. I am scared, and my past haunts me.
When we rolled into New Pal at nearly 3 am I thought Paul was going to head home to Terre Haute after our discussion. I did not want him to go. I felt like I had messed up. He told me all I had to do was ask him to stay, so I did. I think I really would have cried if he left (after he left of course).
Again we shared the sofa, a few hours of kissing, and maybe an hour of sleep. I am so glad that he stayed!!!

Today's Request

"Mom, can we have a baby chicken?"


Talk about crowding someone...or being in their space.



Chicken is glad to be put back down!!!

Of course Mom's answer was No!

Stiffy Green...

Do you know who Stiffy Green is? Do you know where he was said to live?
This is it.....

to read about Stiffy Green ask Gavin or click here.

Two new kids...

I just can't get over how different they look with the new hair...

The Makeover...

Gavin didn't stick around for the after picture....

This is Macey's before picture....I decided I was REALLY tired of the tears during brushing time. I was also tired of sticky candy being stuck in her hair so we cut it....

AFTER......



Daddy said he liked it better long....


I do like it better long, but this is really cute too (and easier)....


It makes her look so grown up!


She really is not our baby anymore :(


She has been eyeing herself in the mirror all night long!


She thinks she looks like her friend Harleigh now...kind of does..

ready...

Papsy and ALL his girls!

Gavin's Nest

Could you sleep here?

This is where Gavin sleeps. We got up and counted...36 stuffed animals, four pillows, two shirts, a handful of army men, two books, one telephone, some candy, and lots of blankets! There was more, but I had to turn a blind eye
.

An Afternoon With Grammy and Papa....

Splashing a little sister with a few fish and swamp slime.....


Waiting for a bite....

A Stressed Out Fish Waits for Gavin to Unhook His Net From Papa's Hook



Grammy and Papa's Street...lined with beautiful trees!

Flash Back Friday 5th Date

I called to reserve two tickets to see Bruce Almighty at Hollywood Bar and Film works (which unfortunately is no longer even there anymore). I decided to put the tickets under Paul's last name because then my last name was Brown...and there was always a Brown in the crowd. So when they asked for a first name I just gave them mine. When I hung up the phone I realized what I had done. I had just put the tickets under Kary Payne. Here we are going on only our fifth date and I already had him married off and was using his last name.

I really didn't know what I was going to tell him when he got to Indy. I tired to give him some other date options...but he was good with going downtown to see a movie. I really didn't want him to think I was some psycho. I finally got it out when we were walking around the circle. He just laughed. I think he will forever joke with me about this (really...I think he forgot, but I never have).

We missed the rain while we were watching the movie. Guess we will have to save the walk in the rain for another date.

A funny dating tid-bit. I had signed up for eharmony months before I joined. Being a single mom...I really couldn't justify spending money just for the chance to meet someone. At Christmas that year my ex-husband and his new wife gave me $100 just to be nice. So at work while talking about this with my girlfriends we all decided that the $100 should be invested in meeting someone. We all laughed about the irony of if I actually did find my next husband this way.

More of My Beautiful Tree....

After last nights rain..the flowers are almost gone, and the blooms cover the ground. Still I am already looking forward to its blooms next spring!

A Sign of Summer...

Kids with dirty finger nails!

Hot Socks and Smelly Pants

For those of you that know me, you already know this story. My daughter Macey is a singer. If she is not talking she is singing. One day she was singing Lady Gaga's song Bad Romance and instead of singing "I want your bad romance." She was singing "I can smell your pants." Now I can't even listen to the song without singing it Macey's way.

Then she was singing Kings of Leo's "Your Sex is on Fire" to the tune of "Your socks are on fire". Now I am truly grateful that she is still young enough to not know the meaning of the word sex...even if it falls in the definition of Male or Female.

Our Easter Day....

Egg Hunting...



notice Gavin trying to sneak the first egg?

Pie eating! Thank you Mamoo for making my favorite! It was yummy!

Animal loving...

Kite Flying...

Skipping Stones at the Bridge

Note...shoes getting wet, muddy and dirty! Thanks to Grammy we now have back up.

Trying to soak a cousin...

I remember taking Gavin and Sid to the bridge when they were Macey's age. There is no way Gavin could have carried Sid on his back then. Seeing them today made me see how quickly time has flown away again.


Happy Birthday to my husband! You are the BEST! You are still my True Companion!